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NOT "BE OR NOT TO BE"

If we dream about primative men that named Adam and Eve,we could ask what did they think first?What was the first impulse in their brain?Was it "where am i" or "who i am" question?I don't think so.There were only "what is this" question.Primative men started to figure out around when they feel hungry,to find something for eating.After they ate one's fill,they could think about everything.In these times,there are people that beleive in they were prophet,and in contrast with that other people beleive that they were evolved animals.Moreover,there is an apple ,which was forbidden in heaven, story that about begining,and big bang that about a long ago from begining.There is two contraries ideas those first one is there is god who-that-which created universe,world,animals,and Adam,and Eve;second one is there isn't any blessed power that create us,everything becomed spontaneously.Therefore,for incredulous pople, primative men learned knowledge their parents,and they could think better because of their high level evolved brain.On the other side, Adam and Eve were prpohet,and they taught to their children god,religious,heaven,hell,good,bad etc.There would be different begining and creating story,but they all are connected a creator. Two ideas from same humanity have been in fight for many years.On the other hand,There is a philosopher who is St.Thomas Aquinas has proves about existing god.First of all,we should describe what-who is god.As you know that there is different religions on the world.Thus,we will say god who created universe,with intelligence,established rules of everything,determined moral laws,sent to humanity books,is infinetly good and powerful,is everywhere,could hear us with no ear,could punish us in heaven if we act bad like evil.

As Aquinas,there are five ways in which God can be proved to exist.First of these that based on change.He asserts that anything in the process of change,therefore,must be altered by an agent other than itself,and this agent by still another.In these way,he sought to first mover that is like an activator or activation energy in chemical reactions.In second way is based on the idea of an efficient cause.There is a pursuit about infinite regress in efficient cause which needs intermediary cause.He found that if there were an infinite regress in efficeient causes,however,there would be no first cause and thus no intermediate cause,there should be postulate firs efficient cause which all call God.In third way,based on the possible and necessary,runs as follows.He think that everything should be of this sort that is like firstly begotten and later perish and hence exist and then do not exist.In this proof,there is cause, which of the neccecity of some other things, called God.In the fourth proof is based on the different degrees discovered among things,for we find some to more good,others less.Aquinas explains that there is some cause of existance and goodness and whether other perfections are characteristic of things,and this we call God.The fifth way is based on the fact that things are guided for we see some sthing which lack knowledge,such as physical bodies,acting for some end.As emphasized in the five proof,there is some intelligent individual,consequently,who directs all natural things ,that act not by chance but by design,to their end.According to Aquinas says that this we could call God.

Aquinas' proofs are so clos to each other.There are basic concepts that are connected themselves with terms are infinite,matter-energy,essence of everything .To the first proof,there should be an agent that we called energy after our scientific researches.If we segment to matter,there will be very large energy.If there were infinite regress here,we could reach to source of energy.Even if we reach it,there will be question about source of source.But,this paradox isn't proof of God.It prove that mankind hasn't been capable to answer that scientefic question.Where did come from this energy?In common with that third proof that is about neccessity of other things,look for an energy as a first thing.

To the second proof,we're looking for postulate some first efficient cause.If we think that universe wasn't exist,but there were the most powerfull energy,there should be a cause to start physical accident,chemical reaction.Only imagine that starting of first reaction from energy to the matter.Though the big bang composed to the universe,the energy had had a little volume for universe.Moreover,the universe was a little like a ping pong ball,because of there weren't anything,even emptyness.So,we should be infinite regress here,we could see big bang like a starting of snooker game.There is a cause that like breaking snooker game will cause everything because,after these subatomic reactions,physichal rules will start,and cause to chemical reactions that will cause to arising planets,stars.All the universe will be created by possibilities and physical rules.Aquinas and some physicists get on the same page on the first cause's effects.The source of first cause will be touched in next sentences.The point is that agreed on the first efficient cause created universe.

To the fourth proof, we should express degrees.Substantial things are evaluable with numbers.Similarly,it is possible to define spiritual things as mathematical degrees like percent.

Even if they are emotions,there is a way to evaulate them.As Aquinas ,there will be always more.These thought point out infinity.All the things ,that could be matter,time,energy, are infinite.

Infinity says us that we will not destroy anytime,and cause to people think about life after death.Fear of the death provide to think heaven and hell.Infinity is one of the important part of God idea that initiates infinity existence.Aquinas claimed that there is some cause of existance and goodness and whatever other prefections ara characteristic of things,and this we call God.God becomes an Utopia here.Even if we couldn't think about a human has infinite goodness,it doesn't mean that there couldn't be the most good human in the world.Though This idea contestable with relativity of goodness or a question that who can be charged to decide,it is not less acceptable to God's perfection.So,if we can find all degrees' best one in universe,Aquinas' idea will be unneccessary.

To the fifth proof,we should figure out how the universe prosesses.If we go back to big bang ,we will see atoms those are acting simple with physic rules.In chemical,every atom wants to be more resolved.Therefore,they makes chemical bond with electron transffering.Atoms could make organic and inorganic compounds.All the things we sense are materialized with reactions.They becomes more complex step by step ,from physical rules to chemical rules,from chemical rules to biological rules.Mankind have been working on these for ages.Though we didn't discover to all rules,but we could say that design has simple substructure from the begining.It is not neccessary to talk about some intelligent individual who directs all natural things to their end.Hereby,we can only

talk about question that "is the atom alive?" or "are we in universe that in an atom?".

Aquinas has lived in middle ages.His arguments are so scientefic and persuasive for middle ages.But,in the twenty-first century,all the five proof are not convincing.

Firstly,inifinity is a thought that is misunderstood by people.They only think that infinity says you won't be destroyed.There is a numerical axis that starts from minus infinite,ends to plus infinite.So,if we don't destroy,we weren't born.We were always here from begining.There weren't any begining.If people could imagine endless life,they should beleive eternal life.Why do they need to figure out begining?

Secondly,there is a loop forever in trying to reach source of source that is creator energy.Why do we need to say it a God?Is there any chance to this energy punish us,creates us with an intelligence,sends us hell?Even if there is only source,and when we discovered

to only universal source,it woudn't be like religion's dream.It will be shining on science's path.Therefore,being a source that has creation energy doesn't prove God's existance.This can't explain prophets,bible,kur-an or something else.

Finally,we have mentioned that about an efficient first cause that creates everything with energy.Also,it was propounded that how does process work after the big bang.Now,we should know that could first cause be God.Actually,development events ,that we know they have been after the first cause,could show us God is not exist.On the other hand,we can't miss out first cause's importance.In order to first cause ,that is assimilable to opening snooker game,effects to all atom's sequence.It has a big role to existence of world and nature and humanity.

If we return to essay's first sentences that are about first human's questions.We could understand to why could God be existed.Because of human's curiosity,mankind tried to answer all question.They said "where am i",and someone discovered a world like plate,even if all the planets ,that they capable to see, were round.When a someone said to "It is like a sphere,is round",they killed.They said "who am i",and someone answered that "You're God's creation that is pullulated from earth.If you don't accept his orders that will be transferred by me,you will be punished."Moreover,when somebody didn't believe messenger and messenger's orders,community choosed to punish sinful in life.In conclusion,there is no reason to convince Aquinas' proofs' anyone.If Aquinas would have lived this age,he might be refute claims about God's existance.

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